(1:35:03 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: yo, why can't you trust me?
(1:35:11 PM) -                      .Halil: Isnt it obvious
(1:35:31 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: the thing which created our rift was from almost 2 years ago
(1:35:36 PM) -                      .Halil: I dont forget
(1:35:45 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: but people change over these 2 year spans
(1:35:54 PM) -                      .Halil: Sucks for them?
(1:36:30 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: are you really going to judge me for something i did 2 years ago when i had a ton of free time and lacked a direction or purpose?
(1:37:18 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: and you know that I can provide a valuable asset to AC-R in terms of ability both on and off of N-A/S-A
(1:37:35 PM) -                      .Halil: .-.
(1:37:56 PM) -                      .Halil: Look
(1:37:57 PM) -                      .Halil: Neo
(1:38:00 PM) -                      .Halil: Im sure you are full of win
(1:38:07 PM) -                      .Halil: But i cant trust someone with your history =/
(1:38:09 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: if you don't have trust in my loyalty right now, is there some type of trial membership thing i could undergo to show you that i'm trustworthy and loyal now?
(1:38:35 PM) -                      .Halil: Not giving up works. But that doesnt mean annoying me in my topic saying I wanna join all the time
(1:39:13 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: what is the aspect of my history that hurts the most for my chance of joining AC-R?
(1:39:41 PM) -                      .Halil: Our direct relationship
(1:39:47 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: and with regards to posting in the topic.. I've posted there just 2 or 3 times in the past few months, and unless I give some type of feedback, it will seem like i've given up
(1:41:55 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: our direct relationship was most likely harmed by my loyalty to my friends in dawn at the time, which i feel shows that i'm loyal to my friends and/or ex-clanmates, even if i know what i'm doing is wrong
now, since dawn has been disbanded and i've lost contact with all of the former dawnies except for Senovit (who doesn't play N-A), mangaguy (who doesn't play N-A), and the others who occasionally wander by IRC, there's no reason for Dawn to be able to influence my decisions in the future
(1:43:08 PM) -                      .Halil: Sigh
(1:43:09 PM) -                      .Halil: Look
(1:43:11 PM) -                      .Halil: if you are serious
(1:43:13 PM) -                      .Halil: which I doubt
(1:43:28 PM) -                      .Halil: Youll have to spend some time around AC-R, without getting in it, without getting confirmation of getting in it
(1:43:30 PM) -                      .Halil: to prove to me
(1:43:37 PM) -                      .Halil: You have true intentions
(1:44:12 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: so do I have your approval to chat with your members in the thread, etc?
(1:44:36 PM) -                      .Halil: Yea 
(1:44:58 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: ok cool, hopefully my actions in the upcoming days can show you that i am a reformed man
(1:45:11 PM) -                      .Halil: 'upcoming days'
(1:45:18 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: upcoming days is an expression
(1:45:20 PM) -                      .Halil: You are mistaken if you think you can win my trust in such a short time period
(1:45:25 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: it doesn't literally mean 'days'
(1:46:08 PM) neopetius@gmail.com: but thanks a ton for taking the time to chat with me today, i know that if we had our roles reversed,i wouldn't have even given you the time of day ... so yeah, thanks
(1:46:34 PM) -                      .Halil: You're welcome