Well hi there

Not sure who I should bug with this, so here's my crap Not sure whether to keep this short or write a full motivation here, I guess I'll do two in one. Short version: I'd like to apply for Asc next round.

Long version:

First of all, ever since I've returned to PA in round 27 or so I've been roaming a bit. I haven't been able to play seriously, and play seriously all round. Always various reasons, mostly education or women I suppose. This is my first real, real, real round, and I've been lazy (also ct....). I've been roaming and searching for a home. I've followed the Denial core around for a bit, and have a nice offer for next round form a person I used to know in another game for a (finally) decent alliance.

But still I apply for Asc, as you see. See, I always had a little bit of a dislike for asc. I didn't like the whole melting pot kind of idea, and I never would have applied to Asc on their high days for the shear reason that I'm not that kind of person. Not a front runner. I like a challenge myself, and every idiot wants to join the #1 alliance. I think its under fire, in a tough position, that people start showing what they're really worth.

I'm looking for a politically active alliance, with involved members who don't just give up when things get rough. An alliance which I could come to call my home because the people in it are people I can stand behind, affiliate myself with. People who know what the hell they are doing, but for me, rank/size/activity isn't all that much. Its what people do with what they're given by which I judge people. For this reason there are no tags in my signature (that, and I think its absolutely pathetic to list all your round achievements in your sig, but thats just a personal thing).

There were always the previous rounds, but only after having seen this round as well I truly believe Ascendancy can offer me a place of which I would be proud. Comrades for whom I could stand. Also, who don't embarrass me after I stick my hand in the fire for them by doing something stupid right after. I don't make this decision lightly, and while I haven't ever talked to most players, I do know I've worked with Reese/eksero/mz with a lot of joy in the past. I name them 'cause they're probably the only ones I've been in a tag with in asc :P My main source of information is AD and what my own experiences on IRC with Asc members, and general knowledge of what's going on in the round. And I very much believe that we can work very well together.

For those reasons, I believe Asc is the alliance for me.

So why am I the member for Asc?

Now I could write generic crap about how insanely I active I am, and how awesome I am at playing for the team whilst still getting a decent planet rank, but really, screw that.

I believe I would be a good addition to Asc because I will get the job done. I won't trip over useless sentiment when making choices or judging situations, and I'm not afraid to stand behind my choices regardless of the consequences. I'm a somewhat decent DC and a reasonable BC, but truly there are better. I don't claim to have the answer for PA, instead I look around me and learn what I can. I don't look to blame anything, and I don't dislike people for making mistakes. Instead I look how we can avoid them the next time.

I play for something. That something isn't planet rank, it isn't even alliance rank. What I play for, is that no matter if everything screws up, I keep trying. I don't quit, I want to do what I set out to do. You can beat me, bash me, farm me, flame me, disgrace me, shit you can assrape me, but I won't let you down. I will keep on fighting with sticks and stones if I have to, but its not over until the last tick has come and gone.

I am involved. If my ally does bad, I feel I did bad. I can be a royal pain in the ass when I feel bad calls are being made, but in the end I will still remember that by signing up for anything, I agreed to live by those bad calls, and support them in front of the rest of the universe if I have to.

I am not looking for the most active, or the highest ranked. (Although I do of course aim to be) I am looking to better myself, to learn from the best, and eventually take my place amongst them. My strength is not doing technical things, but making people work together. Setting a goal, and getting everybody to want to get the job done as badly as me. Inspiring people. I have not done that much in PA yet, I've been lazy, only working with a few trusted people.

I want to stand for something again. Something real. Something that makes me care. And if I care, you can be sure I will make others care.

Out of letters, had to delete some lol. Also there's too much I in this text...

In any case, if you're interested and have any questions (such as my history in this game), you know where to find me. I hope my plea satisfies

-Seraphim