9:55:16 PM Mina Lee: hey. you. typing is quicker than texting. get your ass here.
9:55:16 PM Michael (Autoreply): gotta focus
9:59:58 PM Michael: oh
10:00:05 PM Michael: you're on here
10:01:40 PM Michael: Typing is better than texting. I'll reply here.
10:01:45 PM Mina Lee: oh
10:01:50 PM Mina Lee: well jesus i just replied VIA text
10:02:09 PM Michael: What I'm trying to say is that everything that has happened was mostly out of your control.
10:02:17 PM Mina Lee: i realize that
10:02:22 PM Mina Lee: which is why i contacted you
10:02:28 PM Michael: The only thing you did was message me. But even that was helped.
10:02:31 PM Mina Lee: if i don't think something's my fault, i ignore it
10:02:42 PM Mina Lee: you should know that by now
10:02:45 PM Michael: First
10:02:53 PM Michael: And some of these may have worked
10:02:57 PM Michael: I already know at least one did
10:03:08 PM Michael: I cut off all contact.
10:03:15 PM Mina Lee: what are you talking about?
10:03:23 PM Mina Lee: these? what is "these"?
10:03:28 PM Mina Lee: had an ulterior motive?
10:03:35 PM Michael: Yes, actually.
10:03:43 PM Mina Lee: get to the point then, mike
10:03:46 PM Michael: I have ulterior motives a lot.
10:03:55 PM Michael: Why do you think I asked you to unfriend me?
10:04:12 PM Mina Lee: ah shoulda seen that one coming
10:04:18 PM Mina Lee: i'm not sure
10:04:33 PM Mina Lee: actually i'm pretty confused about anything and everything. spoonfeed me the info, mike.
10:04:45 PM Michael: To teach a lesson: I am not forgettable, or someone easily unnoticed.
10:04:53 PM Michael: I am not expendable.
10:05:07 PM Mina Lee: unlike other people in the world?
10:05:21 PM Mina Lee: are you trying to say that you wanted me to learn to treasure you or something?
10:05:31 PM Michael: No, you already did to some degree.
10:05:34 PM Michael: I just got you to admit it.
10:05:38 PM Mina Lee: Not treasure
10:05:41 PM Mina Lee: it's more like
10:05:42 PM Mina Lee: hm
10:05:46 PM Michael: You value my time.
10:05:56 PM Mina Lee: what are you getting at?
10:06:01 PM Mina Lee: what do you get out of this?
10:06:06 PM Mina Lee: always about payoff
10:06:07 PM Michael: ha
10:06:12 PM Michael: Well, that's the funny thing.
10:06:15 PM Michael: I don't know.
10:06:20 PM Mina Lee: ...mike.
10:06:24 PM Mina Lee: really now?
10:06:28 PM Michael: right
10:06:33 PM Michael: I do always have ulterior motives
10:06:36 PM Michael: I may as well tell you
10:06:38 PM Michael: again
10:07:40 PM Michael: Initially, it was for you to do exactly what you're doing now: realize that I'm worth talking to.
10:07:51 PM Michael: But now? I don't even know if I want that. I might not even care.
10:08:00 PM Michael: After all, nothing lasts forever...
10:08:09 PM Mina Lee: see now i don't know if you have an ulterior motive behind saying that
10:08:29 PM Mina Lee: you definitely just fucked with my head and i'm not a happy camper
10:08:34 PM Michael: Each instrument playing its own set of notes is part of the same song.
10:08:34 PM Mina Lee: .__.
10:08:59 PM Mina Lee: mike, you already knew that nothing lasts forever
10:09:05 PM Mina Lee: so how could that have been your motive
10:09:13 PM Michael: wat?
10:09:33 PM Mina Lee: i'm pretty sure you've told me that several times
10:09:38 PM Mina Lee: how nothing lasts forever
10:09:40 PM Michael: Do you think I'm deliberately screwing up a friendship to reaffirm something I've already known?
10:09:45 PM Michael: Of course not.
10:09:47 PM Mina Lee: what friendship?
10:09:56 PM Mina Lee: then why payoff?
10:10:06 PM Mina Lee: friendship isn't about payoff
10:10:14 PM Mina Lee: maybe leverage in some sick way
10:10:19 PM Mina Lee: but definitely not payoff
10:10:29 PM Michael: Leverage then. They have close enough meanings.
10:10:52 PM Mina Lee: i'm tired. and i'm not sure what you're getting at
10:11:22 PM Michael: I did it because I liked you. I had a pretty good feeling you'd get in touch with me again somehow or somewhen.
10:11:28 PM Michael: Not necessarily for the same reasons of course.
10:11:36 PM Mina Lee: oh well good job
10:11:38 PM Mina Lee: i contacted you
10:11:42 PM Michael: Mhm.
10:11:42 PM Mina Lee: what's after that?
10:11:46 PM Michael: Nothing really.
10:11:49 PM Mina Lee: see
10:11:52 PM Michael: Glad you liked the bear video though.
10:11:57 PM Mina Lee: how could you have not planned for after that
10:12:00 PM Mina Lee: and also, i am too
10:12:13 PM Mina Lee: i saw one of those plastic bracelets that transforms into a shape.
10:12:16 PM Mina Lee: it was a rhino
10:12:22 PM Mina Lee: but it looked like a bear
10:12:22 PM Michael: By the way, I made my facebook page public in the event you happened to check my page.
10:12:29 PM Mina Lee: oh wow
10:12:30 PM Mina Lee: well
10:12:31 PM Michael: Ulterior motives lolol
10:12:35 PM Mina Lee: that's almost creepy
10:12:44 PM Michael: Hey, I'm not the one looking at someone else's page
10:12:45 PM Mina Lee: but honestly
10:13:05 PM Michael: You think I was sitting here staring at your profile picture or something?
10:13:05 PM Mina Lee: i'm not sure if i'm happy or angry that someone predicted my thoughts so accurately
10:13:09 PM Mina Lee: wow grammar
10:13:10 PM Mina Lee: no
10:13:17 PM Mina Lee: i don't think you're that much of a creeper
10:13:27 PM Michael: I'm not at all. I'm just an evil sonofabitch.
10:13:29 PM Mina Lee: def. a creeper as proven when you attempted to lick dan sham though
10:13:35 PM Mina Lee: oh well that's great
10:13:49 PM Mina Lee: fuck
10:13:52 PM Michael: I'm a little disappointed.
10:13:54 PM Mina Lee: i feel like i'm putting my neck out there
10:13:58 PM Mina Lee: with you holding an axe
10:14:27 PM Michael: You didn't win. This was too easy to predict. I might as well have been inside your head.
10:14:30 PM Michael: I don't like that.
10:14:35 PM Mina Lee: i never win
10:14:37 PM Mina Lee: not with you
10:14:40 PM Mina Lee: and i never know why
10:14:43 PM Michael: It probably goes without saying but I don't like you.
10:14:49 PM Mina Lee: i always give up. too tired.
10:14:51 PM Mina Lee: and i realize this
10:14:52 PM Michael: At least, not like that.
10:15:04 PM Mina Lee: i thought that a while ago
10:15:05 PM Mina Lee: actually
10:15:10 PM Mina Lee: i thought you went back to liking margie
10:15:12 PM Mina Lee: not quite sure why
10:15:15 PM Michael: Again, no anger or rage. No awkward tension keeping me from talking to you.
10:15:16 PM Michael: ha
10:15:23 PM Michael: No, not bitchy enough.
10:15:28 PM Mina Lee: what
10:15:29 PM Mina Lee: ...
10:15:37 PM Michael: It was a joke.
10:15:44 PM Mina Lee: no i'm kind of offended
10:15:48 PM Mina Lee: i'm sick of the bitch jokes
10:15:58 PM Mina Lee: honestly i just try to keep calm and be nice in school
10:16:02 PM Mina Lee: no matter what personality i put on
10:16:05 PM Mina Lee: i'm a bitch
10:16:10 PM Mina Lee: even when i'm being nice
10:16:12 PM Mina Lee: like fuck it
10:16:13 PM Michael: sigh
10:16:15 PM Mina Lee: i'm here to get grades
10:16:22 PM Mina Lee: sorry
10:16:31 PM Mina Lee: i'm in bitch mode
10:16:32 PM Michael: This is why I don't like you anymore. I'm better than you.
10:16:37 PM Mina Lee: oh mike
10:16:41 PM Mina Lee: and how are you better?
10:16:46 PM Mina Lee: how is anyone better?
10:16:54 PM Mina Lee: will you ever find anyone better than you?
10:17:02 PM Mina Lee: ha
10:17:08 PM Mina Lee: actually ironic
10:17:15 PM Mina Lee: i should be asking myself these questions
10:17:16 PM Michael: I might have already, actually
10:17:41 PM Michael: If she isn't better she's damn close
10:17:50 PM Mina Lee: well then have fun in the game of wooing
10:18:03 PM Mina Lee: honestly though
10:18:20 PM Mina Lee: i'm kind of pissed now at the fact that you kind of manipulated me
10:18:30 PM Mina Lee: no not kind of
10:18:31 PM Michael: By not speaking to you?
10:18:31 PM Mina Lee: you did
10:18:34 PM Mina Lee: no
10:18:36 PM Mina Lee: by planning
10:18:40 PM Mina Lee: i feel like you set me up
10:18:48 PM Mina Lee: but that's just me scape goating i guess
10:18:51 PM Michael: Yes, but your behavior wasn't changed.
10:19:00 PM Michael: You just...acted.
10:19:00 PM Mina Lee: hm elaborate
10:19:12 PM Mina Lee: actually for the first week or two
10:19:14 PM Mina Lee: i was prety fine
10:19:26 PM Mina Lee: i was honestly just like ok. one bitch less in my life
10:19:34 PM Mina Lee: but then i realized i had no one to bitch to besides my sister
10:19:43 PM Mina Lee: and even then bitching to a sister requires listening to bitching
10:19:59 PM Mina Lee: and that just gets messy when it's a sibling sometimes
10:20:10 PM Mina Lee: and then i eventually came to texting you
10:20:21 PM Mina Lee: so i guess it doesn't matter
10:20:32 PM Mina Lee: you win in superiority and intellect, mr. ryan
10:20:41 PM Michael: Eh.
10:20:46 PM Michael: Don't let it get you down.
10:21:10 PM Mina Lee: i'm not
10:21:16 PM Mina Lee: it's more liek getting me worked up
10:21:16 PM Michael: For what it's worth if you still have bear paraphernalia you want to share with me I'm all ears
10:21:34 PM Mina Lee: actually, i found someone else for that
10:21:42 PM Michael: Well alright
10:22:04 PM Michael: I have nothing more to say.
10:22:24 PM Michael: eh. nope.
10:22:43 PM Mina Lee: i don't
10:22:45 PM Mina Lee: ugh
10:22:53 PM Mina Lee: i'm not sure what my thoughts are besides
10:22:56 PM Mina Lee: bitchbitchbitch
10:23:15 PM Mina Lee: and i'm not even sure who i'm aiming those words at
10:23:22 PM Mina Lee: fuck you michael ryan
10:23:30 PM Mina Lee: i think my logic's messed with now
10:23:39 PM Mina Lee: no
10:24:18 PM Michael: Your logic isn't messed, you're just not thinking of what the logic is.
10:24:43 PM Mina Lee: no
10:24:44 PM Mina Lee: shit
10:24:51 PM Mina Lee: now i'm comparing myself to my mother
10:24:55 PM Mina Lee: oh that's fucking brilliant
10:25:03 PM Mina Lee: last thing i want to be is her
10:25:05 PM Mina Lee: ugh
10:25:09 PM Mina Lee: great
10:25:14 PM Mina Lee: good thing i decided to skip tomorrow
10:25:30 PM Michael: You're not feeling well.
10:25:51 PM Michael: You probably didn't anticipate any of this. Try getting some rest.
10:25:55 PM Mina Lee: no i have diarrhea. tell the school for me. also i have a fever of 103
10:25:57 PM Mina Lee: and strep
10:26:06 PM Mina Lee: also pneumonia
10:26:11 PM Mina Lee: shit tell nespola too
10:26:24 PM Mina Lee: but don't tell the kids
10:26:28 PM Mina Lee: they all know my tricks
10:26:34 PM Mina Lee: tricksy hobitses
10:26:41 PM Michael: Not all of them...
10:26:47 PM Mina Lee: yes all of them
10:26:51 PM Mina Lee: apparently especially you
10:26:54 PM Mina Lee: sorry that was bitter
10:27:01 PM Mina Lee: idk
10:27:06 PM Mina Lee: i'm feeling insulted
10:27:06 PM Michael: No, not all of them.
10:27:10 PM Mina Lee: yes all of them
10:27:16 PM Mina Lee: i'm doubting myself a lot now
10:27:18 PM Michael: then do something about it.
10:27:27 PM Mina Lee: im starting to have creeping thoughts that i'm a readable person
10:27:30 PM Mina Lee: and i won't
10:27:36 PM Mina Lee: because i have too many conflicting thoughts
10:27:41 PM Mina Lee: <--indecisive
10:27:45 PM Mina Lee: well wtf
10:27:45 PM Michael: You want to be a step ahead yeah?
10:27:49 PM Mina Lee: no
10:27:51 PM Mina Lee: idk
10:27:54 PM Michael: You want to fall behind?
10:27:55 PM Mina Lee: i have a complex about that
10:28:02 PM Mina Lee: and i can't explain it
10:28:10 PM Mina Lee: i want to be ahead
10:28:12 PM Mina Lee: but when i try to be
10:28:12 PM Michael: You don't need to. Remember who you're talking to
10:28:18 PM Mina Lee: ha
10:28:25 PM Mina Lee: but i do
10:28:36 PM Mina Lee: i can't tell if you actually understand what i'm saying correctly
10:28:44 PM Mina Lee: i can't explain the mixed feelings i have
10:28:48 PM Mina Lee: it's like
10:29:13 PM Michael: You don't want to become better. At the end of the day you're used to being below other people or authority.
10:29:17 PM Mina Lee: get ahead mina, predict and read yoru classmates. you're good at this and have done it many times before
10:29:28 PM Michael: But at the same time you see the benefits.
10:29:42 PM Mina Lee: but then don't read them mina. you don't want to become some selfrighteous bastard like your mother. don't go batshit on people with the wrong accusations
10:29:51 PM Mina Lee: so no you're not getting my thought process
10:29:55 PM Mina Lee: you don't know my mother
10:29:59 PM Mina Lee: and probably never will
10:30:03 PM Mina Lee: so this conflict is hard to explainb
10:30:09 PM Michael: Not exactly. My parents never had to do anything with it.
10:30:17 PM Mina Lee: nono
10:30:20 PM Mina Lee: i mean
10:30:20 PM Mina Lee: ugh
10:30:52 PM Mina Lee: ok my mother's a gamble. she can read people well. too well IMO but sometimes she goes to extremes. she thinks too much and comes up with somethign elaborate for a simple action
10:31:02 PM Mina Lee: and this easily makes someone an antagonist in her eyes
10:31:07 PM Mina Lee: she reads them as thinking she's dumb
10:31:08 PM Mina Lee: or something
10:31:28 PM Mina Lee: i don't want to be her because i've seen home people's egos inflate when they know they're better
10:31:34 PM Mina Lee: and i don't want to think i'm always right
10:31:40 PM Mina Lee: i don't want to hurt people when i'm wrong
10:31:51 PM Mina Lee: but i want to be ahead and be safe
10:31:58 PM Mina Lee: it's stupid
10:32:01 PM Michael: Then stop being wrong.
10:32:01 PM Mina Lee: idfk
10:32:04 PM Mina Lee: i can't
10:32:11 PM Mina Lee: it's not that simple
10:32:17 PM Michael: Yeah. You can. And no, it's not.
10:32:17 PM Mina Lee: i can't even be right about myself
10:32:39 PM Mina Lee: i don't even know if i love my family anymore. to you it isn't a big deal
10:32:40 PM Mina Lee: but for me
10:32:45 PM Mina Lee: i can't even read my family
10:32:50 PM Mina Lee: and idk what love is anymore
10:33:00 PM Mina Lee: it's like lately i keep askign why about everything
10:33:15 PM Mina Lee: but then i have to stop myself because then i might start thinking liek my mother
10:33:20 PM Mina Lee: p.s. thanks mr. shrink