Dear Olga,


Happy belated birthday!  The last time I wrote was just before your birthday.  I haven’t forgotten you and hoped you didn’t think I lost interest.  Things haven’t turned out quite the way I’ve planned so my life isn’t as solid as it should be.  The candle business isn’t quite solvent yet and my novel isn’t published.  When and if we meet I want to be more secure because you deserve that.  Even then I won’t have the 40 foot yacht, a dozen luxury cars and a mansion I’ll still be a simple man with two nice vehicles, a simple house and a lot of love to give.  This doesn’t mean a life of poverty it’s just not the rich American life that a lot of folks expect. 

The first novel is almost finished and is ready for editing then submission to a publisher.  Well I’m going to submit to numerous publishers because I know this novel is excellent and will sell.  I also have 3 concepts for additional novels based upon characters from the first one.  If I could sell the whole series to one publisher with a pay ahead contract life will be good.  I love to write though and I love romance.  That’s the nice thing about novels I can write about the love and romance I can’t seem to find.  I don’t want to be treated as a prince or treat my love as a princess.  To put it simply I just want to be me the man they’ve chosen to love.  Nor do I believe things can ever be fully equal since control in a relationship shouldn’t be an issue since decisions should always be shared.  I want a best friend to walk beside me that sparks my passions and inspires me to be the man I can be.  Someone that will try to see my point of view as I try to see theirs if there is a conflict.  

Let me tell you more about me.  I’ve lived in small towns my whole life and quite prefer them because I love the slower pace of life and the time to stop and smell the roses as the old saying goes.  Places where folks know you by name or at least by face where saying hello isn’t passed up in a hurried rush.  I’ve lived in cities before but they simply weren’t me, all that hustling and bustling wore me down and I was never happy as I was in a small town. I do enjoy relaxing at home but I’m not a hermit either.  I love to go to little country bars, shoot pool, dance and have a good time even though I don’t drink very much or at all.  I also love to go for long drives and just see all the sights.  It’s funny how you can live somewhere your whole life and still never soak it all in. Sometimes on these long drives I’d like to have someone special with me so we could drive into a large city and have a night on the town.  A nice meal, shopping and if the mood occurs a night at a nice hotel to just get away from the house and forget all the cares there.

My friend from Moscow says that Mariupol is a small town but from what I’ve read it seems like a city to me so hopefully you’ll clarify that for me.  I know one thing and that is that the Asov Sea seems beautiful and special.  There is one thing I know for certain and that is how rough homesickness can be.  If we ended up together I’d always make sure there was money set aside for you to go home once a year maybe more to visit your family and friends.  I’ve been away 1300 miles in a different state without the ability to go home and see my family and it broke my heart.

I am divorced but it wasn’t infidelity or abuse that lead to the end of the marriage.  There were just a lot of mistakes on both of our parts that caused us to grow apart.  I just didn’t want the fact I’m divorced to scare you.  Since the end of the marriage though I’ve gotten over all of that but I never forgot the mistakes and problems.  I’ve done a lot of soul searching and found so many of the answers to those problems.  Now I’m ready to use those answers and find the love I need and the love I need to give.  

I know it seems I keep jumping ahead but I want you to know that I am serious even though I’m not completely prepared.  A lot of other ladies on Anastasiaweb have caught my eye but your profile and pictures keeps drawing me back.  You seem so honest and genuine in your description and your beautiful blue eyes say the same.