` Her pain 
	/ different word for pain /
	` Tears
	` Innocence
		` How did she lose it ?
	` Wisdom
	` Blindness
` My realization
	` Aeons thinking & me discerning my inner-self(although it was known from 
		 the begining, and due to my huge underestimation I thought it might work)
		 I was wrong from the begining.
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` My desire for her salvation
	` My desire for her to feel good
		` Even if it costs with my ceassation in her life
	` I must speak with her about it
		` " Even if it costs with my ceassation in her life", "and now, my mind asks me ' Are you insane ?' 'probably so' "
` My punishments
	` Insomnia
	` Full social detachment
	` Apathy
	` Higher paranoia
		` Lead (almost) to being schizoid
` Her love ?
	` Was there any love ?
		` She was blind by the fog of heaven / find more than one synonym for 'fog of heaven' /
	` Her trust
		` Was there any trust ? 
			` Yes, there was.
` My non-feelings
	` How iditioc I was.
		` That time, how things ran, how I demolished myself.
		` Creation of my punishments
 			` Inside the world which was heaven - transformed into hell