(09:41:18) chillmaster: and to be honest
(09:41:25) yarrliz: I was cheating on you the entire time and lying about it
(09:41:29) chillmaster: yeah :)
(09:41:31) yarrliz: so, I am hardly in a superior position
(09:41:41) chillmaster: hehe
(09:41:43) chillmaster: wow
(09:41:53) chillmaster: your going to make me wanna get an STD test
(09:41:54) chillmaster: :P
(09:41:56) chillmaster: j/
(09:41:57) chillmaster: k
(09:41:59) yarrliz: you should
(09:42:14) yarrliz: I tested hot for chlymidia when dennis and I first got together
(09:42:23) yarrliz: before him and I had sex
(09:42:25) chillmaster: haha
(09:42:42) yarrliz: so, it was you, jason or andrew
(09:43:50) chillmaster: well
(09:43:56) chillmaster: :)
(09:43:58) chillmaster: im glad your happy
(09:44:03) chillmaster: but like I said
(09:44:05) chillmaster: I live in the now
(09:44:07) chillmaster: so tell me
(09:44:11) chillmaster: whats going on today?
(09:44:19) yarrliz: counselors at 11
(09:44:25) yarrliz: lunch with dennis after that
(09:44:30) yarrliz: pick the boys up at school
(09:44:33) yarrliz: dinner
(09:44:34) yarrliz: movie
(09:44:35) yarrliz: bed
(09:44:39) yarrliz: a nice NORMAL day
(09:44:50) chillmaster: good :)
(09:44:55) chillmaster: yeah
(09:44:58) chillmaster: I like normal days
(09:45:07) chillmaster: ive been doing nothing but reading and meditating and working out lately
(09:45:17) chillmaster: I keep buying more books
(09:45:19) yarrliz: the meditating thing
(09:45:23) chillmaster: never finishing them
(09:45:23) yarrliz: is really annoying by the way
(09:45:25) chillmaster: haha
(09:45:26) chillmaster: good
(09:45:27) chillmaster: :)

(09:45:40) chillmaster: I couldnt do itwhile you were around
(09:45:44) chillmaster: and you were around all the time
(09:45:55) chillmaster: I really dont have time for a girl right now
(09:46:04) chillmaster: I got back together with Sara about a month after you
(09:46:10) chillmaster: and realized that was a mistake
(09:46:19) chillmaster: she appreciates the spiritual aspect of me
(09:46:25) chillmaster: but
(09:46:35) chillmaster: she is her own person now
(09:46:48) chillmaster: not the same one I fell in love with back in HS
(09:47:08) yarrliz: how long did we date?
(09:47:10) yarrliz: like 2 months?
(09:47:15) chillmaster: I dont keep track
(09:47:27) chillmaster: I dont think that long even
(09:49:13) chillmaster: but yeah
(09:49:23) chillmaster: before we stop talking forever
(09:49:29) chillmaster: I want you to know
(09:49:33) chillmaster: I worried about you
(09:49:37) chillmaster: and I prayed for you
(09:49:43) chillmaster: and im glad you found someone
(09:49:48) chillmaster: I just couldnt be your boyfriend
(09:49:57) chillmaster: so im sorry if I hurt you
(09:50:02) chillmaster: but it turned out for the better after all
(09:50:08) chillmaster: so look forward girl
(09:50:25) chillmaster: your thoughts plant the seeds which create your future
(09:51:04) chillmaster: I have nothing but compassion for people these days
(09:51:08) chillmaster: but no sympathy
(09:51:12) chillmaster: no pity
(09:51:25) chillmaster: no one can make you cry but yourself
(09:51:30) chillmaster: and thats that
(09:51:32) chillmaster: I guess
(09:51:33) chillmaster: :)
(09:51:44) chillmaster: so I wish you the best karma in the world
(09:51:50) chillmaster: and no matter what happens
(09:51:55) chillmaster: you will be ok
(09:51:57) chillmaster: :)
(09:51:59) chillmaster: I promise