(17:50:54) saving no lives: your away seemed v.lovey dovey
(17:50:54) Me: i don't know.
(17:51:01) Me: oh last night?
(17:51:11) Me: yeah that was bright eyes so it was more depressed heh.
(17:51:13) Me: yeah cause like.
(17:51:25) Me: okay i've never like had feelings for two people at the same time.
(17:51:31) Me: and i have that with gus & chuck.
(17:51:34) Me: like gus is everything chuck isn't.
(17:51:40) Me: and i care about him a LOT.
(17:51:47) Me: and after chuck broke up with me, we got really close.
(17:52:03) saving no lives: Yeah I know how that goes, having feelings for 2 people at the same time
(17:52:09) Me: so  i got like closer and now i'm back here.
(17:52:15) Me: so gus got upset i saw chuck.
(17:52:21) saving no lives: :[
(17:52:33) Me: and he said he's upset i'm like going between the both of them, but like i can't help it, i'm as confused as he is... i just don't know what to do.
(17:52:50) Me: and the best advice i've gotten is to stand back without influence from both and like figure out what i want to do.
(17:52:57) saving no lives: that should make him want to nab you asap duh
(17:53:09) Me: like, i was planning on not dating either.
(17:53:12) Me: because that way there's no stress.
(17:53:23) Me: but then both of them want to be in a relationship and don't want me having feelings for the other.
(17:53:24) saving no lives: yeah you should do that, otherwise they'll start getting into it and things will be completely ruined 
(17:53:32) Me: and i honestly have NO idea what to do, i'm a complete wreck.
(17:53:41) saving no lives: you need
(17:53:46) saving no lives: ruby tuesdays :]
(17:53:47) Me: ice cream?
(17:53:48) Me: haha
(17:53:51) Me: that made me smile :)
(17:53:54) saving no lives: that toooo
(17:53:58) saving no lives: :] yay
(17:53:59) Me: cones :D
(17:54:00) Me: haha
(17:55:25) saving no lives: Yappp
(17:55:57) Me: it's just the strangest, and probably one of the worst, feelings.
(17:56:09) Me: because i don't want to hurt either, i just want to make them both happy.
(17:56:15) saving no lives: yeah I know how it is
(17:56:23) saving no lives: and you can't do anything with either cause
(17:56:27) Me: like my grandmother was telling me that this isn't a decision of who not to hurt, it's what i feel is best for me.
(17:56:29) saving no lives: the guilt will eat you alive
(17:56:35) Me: exactly.
(17:56:47) Me: like oh poo.
(17:56:48) Me: crying
(17:56:49) Me: haha
(17:56:56) Me: i need to like shift so my dad and lisa can't see.
(17:56:56) saving no lives: Please dontttt :[
(17:57:02) Me: okay oaky.
(17:57:10) saving no lives: DEEP BREATHS BUD
(17:57:13) Me: like i was trying to keep myself from getting too close to gus.
(17:57:14) saving no lives: cho cun dew it
(17:57:14) Me: ha thanks :)
(17:57:27) Me: because i knew i'd fall in love with him.
(17:57:36) Me: and i did and it was like nice.
(17:57:38) saving no lives: why'd my dad just go "mehican huh?" idekidek
(17:57:44) Me: ...weird.
(17:57:45) saving no lives: :[ I want you happy
(17:57:50) saving no lives: if happy is with gus
(17:57:56) Me: but like i don't want to come back here and feel horrible for chuck.
(17:58:02) saving no lives: then so be it.
(17:58:12) saving no lives: but its about you, you ding dong
(17:58:26) Me: because i dunno i feel like chuck came around first and i'm being mean to him by having feelings for someone else but i can't help it and i wanna like stab my heart so i just have no more emotion as fucking emo as that sounds rofl
(17:58:38) Me: i know i know i just can't like, i can't do that.
(17:58:44) saving no lives: chuck will be fine he's human just like the rest of us. a little overdramatic imo, which certainly doesn't help
(17:58:47) Me: it's not like i can't choose it's like i just i dunno
(17:58:48) saving no lives: I know :[
(17:58:58) Me: rofl no one likes chuck these days
(17:59:09) Me: like i seriously almost called chuck gus a zillion times.
(17:59:30) saving no lives: I think the decision is made in your heart BUT your mind/concience get in the way. which is fine its human nature
17:59:42) Me: yeah
(17:59:48) saving no lives: yar matey
(17:59:52) Me: my heart's like I KNOW WHAT I WANT and my brains like FUCK YOU SHUT UP
(18:00:09) saving no lives: you'll be happy soon