(8:16:16 PM) Matt: (8:15:21 PM) raynaldo rivera: well umm
(8:15:27 PM) raynaldo rivera: i guess you jinxed the shit out of it
(8:15:51 PM) Matt: ??
(8:16:00 PM) raynaldo rivera: ask amy
(8:16:17 PM) Matt: ??
(8:16:43 PM) Matt: what did i do
(8:16:47 PM) Amy Ochoa: nothing.
(8:16:52 PM) Amy Ochoa: i just did something terrible.
(8:16:58 PM) Amy Ochoa: and everyone is going to hate me for it
(8:17:09 PM) Matt: you broke up with michael?
(8:17:20 PM) Amy Ochoa: :|
(8:17:25 PM) Amy Ochoa: :((
(8:17:27 PM) Amy Ochoa: yes.
(8:17:31 PM) Matt: hmmm why
(8:17:49 PM) Amy Ochoa: its better this way.
(8:17:58 PM) Amy Ochoa: now he can find a girl that he can be with all the time.
(8:18:05 PM) Amy Ochoa: not just 15 minutes out of the day.
(8:18:20 PM) Matt: maybe that was enough for him?
(8:18:35 PM) Amy Ochoa: :(
(8:18:50 PM) Matt: hmmm how did you tell him
(8:18:56 PM) Matt: btw i dont hate you, just so you know
(8:19:01 PM) Matt: i am a little surprised though
(8:19:17 PM) Amy Ochoa: i cant believe i did it.
(8:19:22 PM) Amy Ochoa: i didnt want to.
(8:19:26 PM) Amy Ochoa: and thanks.
(8:19:28 PM) Amy Ochoa: but its better.
(8:19:44 PM) Matt: if you didnt want to
(8:19:46 PM) Matt: why did you
(8:20:08 PM) Amy Ochoa: i didnt but i did. for the sole reason that its difficult.
(8:20:18 PM) Amy Ochoa: perhaps if he were in some of my classes it would work.
(8:22:07 PM) Matt: hmmm how are you feeling
(8:22:15 PM) Amy Ochoa: sad.
(8:22:19 PM) Amy Ochoa: and kind of sick
(8:22:44 PM) Matt: you know, he really does care about you and its obvious you care about him
(8:22:48 PM) Matt: and anytime he got with you
(8:22:50 PM) Matt: was enough for him
(8:22:55 PM) Matt: you dont have to do this
(8:23:07 PM) Matt: if you want my advice, you should ask him to take you back
(8:23:45 PM) Amy Ochoa: no. its better this way. a relationship cannot function with a lack of contact.
(8:24:39 PM) Matt: amy, your all he talks about and he couldnt wait for the time he got with you
(8:24:45 PM) Matt: it was enough for him
(8:24:47 PM) Matt: any time was enough
(8:25:02 PM) Matt: so if your going to do this, dont do it because you think your helping him
(8:25:04 PM) Matt: because your not
(8:25:35 PM) Amy Ochoa: it was just getting too hard.
(8:25:45 PM) Amy Ochoa: for me too.
(8:25:51 PM) Matt: thats no reason to end it, you just worked harder
(8:25:55 PM) Matt: and he was willing to
(8:26:08 PM) Matt: so if your going to do it, dont say its for him because its not helping him
(8:26:14 PM) Matt: dont do it unless its what you really want
(8:26:17 PM) Matt: and i dont think it is
(8:26:37 PM) Amy Ochoa: :(
(8:26:49 PM) Amy Ochoa: i cant do it.
(8:26:56 PM) Matt: define it
(8:27:01 PM) Amy Ochoa: define it?
(8:27:09 PM) Matt: (8:26:49 PM) Amy Ochoa: i cant do it.
(8:27:13 PM) Matt: what do you mean by it
(8:27:51 PM) Amy Ochoa: i cant have just a few random moments like it has been.
(8:28:39 PM) Amy Ochoa: brb. i think im going to be sick.
(8:32:10 PM) Amy Ochoa: back.
(8:32:18 PM) Matt: did you get sick?
(8:32:32 PM) Amy Ochoa: i threw up a little bit.
(8:32:40 PM) Matt: get some water
(8:33:25 PM) Amy Ochoa: i think i need a 7 up
(8:33:29 PM) Amy Ochoa: or a sprite.
(8:33:36 PM) Amy Ochoa: unfortunately i have neither
(8:33:41 PM) Matt: get water then
(8:33:45 PM) Matt: it helps trust me
(8:33:56 PM) Amy Ochoa: mm k brb.
(8:36:37 PM) Amy Ochoa: backn
(8:36:48 PM) Matt: are you crying?
(8:37:14 PM) Amy Ochoa: maybe.
(8:37:17 PM) Amy Ochoa: no.
(8:37:18 PM) Amy Ochoa: yes.
(8:37:34 PM) Matt: dont, it makes you feel worse
(8:37:43 PM) Amy Ochoa: i feel so horrible.
(8:37:57 PM) Matt: im not saying you shouldnt, but dont
(8:38:18 PM) Matt: why do you feel horrible
(8:38:28 PM) Amy Ochoa: because i just hurt michael
(8:39:06 PM) Matt: amy are you sure you want to do this
(8:39:10 PM) Matt: because i dont think you do
(8:39:31 PM) Amy Ochoa: yes i do. its whats best for both of us.
(8:39:40 PM) Matt: no whats best for michael is you
(8:39:52 PM) Matt: and if you care about him half as much as it seems you do
(8:39:55 PM) Matt: you can make this work
(8:40:58 PM) Matt: michael changed the entire way he goes about relationships for you
(8:41:07 PM) Matt: maybe you should try giving it just as much effort?
(8:41:15 PM) Matt: i know its hard
(8:41:17 PM) Matt: i understand
(8:41:29 PM) Matt: but i really think you would be better off if you tried
(8:41:45 PM) Amy Ochoa: i have tried.
(8:41:49 PM) Amy Ochoa: i guess not hard enough.
(8:42:20 PM) Matt: try harder? because hes worth it?
(8:42:49 PM) Amy Ochoa: its not fair for either of uss.
(8:43:28 PM) Matt: no whats not fair to either of you is to end it like this
(8:43:52 PM) Matt: because its obvious you 2 had something special
(8:44:06 PM) Matt: and its also obvious that its worth it to make this work
(8:44:43 PM) Amy Ochoa: but it cant work.
(8:44:50 PM) Matt: sure it can
(8:45:02 PM) Amy Ochoa: not this way.
(8:45:03 PM) Matt: there are couples that live across the world from each other but they make it work
(8:45:07 PM) Matt: because its worth it
(8:45:22 PM) Amy Ochoa: thats true.
(8:45:42 PM) Amy Ochoa: ......
(8:45:54 PM) Matt: if some people can make it work with people they love that are overseas, i know you can make it work with what you have
(8:47:39 PM) Amy Ochoa: 8sigh8
(8:48:24 PM) Amy Ochoa: "whats done is done"
(8:48:41 PM) Matt: thats not true and you know it
(8:48:45 PM) Matt: he would take you back in an instant
(8:48:54 PM) Matt: you have to decide what you want
(8:49:06 PM) Matt: and if i know what you want as well as i think you do
(8:49:12 PM) Matt: i think you would take him back
(8:49:28 PM) Amy Ochoa: what i want is something totally different from what is best.
(8:50:08 PM) Matt: meaning?
(8:50:10 PM) Amy Ochoa: bye
(8:50:15 PM) Matt: bye
(8:50:17 PM) Matt: amy
(8:50:24 PM) Matt: at least sleep on it, please
(8:50:29 PM) Amy Ochoa: :(
(8:50:46 PM) Matt: please?
(8:50:59 PM) Amy Ochoa: ok joseph. ill think about it real hard.
(8:51:16 PM) Amy Ochoa: but i truly believe its better this way.
(8:51:24 PM) Matt: sigh
(8:51:32 PM) Amy Ochoa has signed off.